Martes, Setyembre 24, 2013

Something Old




Letting go of something old is something we all have to go through in life, we all reach the point wherein we are to choose between keeping something in our lives or let it go. Reality says that its not really that easy because once you think of letting go of something, we tend to look back to the time when that something was what exactly we wanted, we realize that at one point in time, that particular something made us happy.

Photographs.. There is a reason why we smile when we take photos of the moments that were special in our lives, birthdays, celebrations, anniversaries or even just the times that we feel like capturing the moment, we hope that one day in the future, we’ll look back and we’ll be reminded of the moments that we once treasured together. First dates, coffee afternoons, surprises, romantic dinner dates, random cute photos, beach outings and so on. Letting these photos go somehow makes us move on from the smile that once meant everything to us, those eyes that shined when we looked straight right into it, those hands that we once held tight and never wanted to let go, the face that once was the prettiest and that person right beside us that once meant the world to us..

Letters.. When we write these letters, we do our best to put every single emotion we have in our body into words, with that thought in mind, the letters we receive from that someone special in our life tends to reach out into our hearts, knowing that they took it from all the emotions they feel inside.. In the process of letting these pieces of papers go, there is a possibility that we read them one last time.. We’ll all go through all the “I love you’s” and the “I miss you’s” and all the other sweet sentiments we used to share for the last time. Reading these pieces of papers for the last time and throwing it away or burning them into ashes helps us move on from all the feelings we’ve felt when we first read those words. The “I miss you” that you wrote when we were apart and you felt like you needed me by your side.. The “I care for you” that you wrote by just wanting to tell me how much you are there for me at the time.. and the “I love you” that at that point in time, was the reason behind my inspiration.. Eventually it will come to a time that we’ll have to move on, keeping these letters won’t do any good because they will just make us remember how special these papers were for us at one point in our lives. We can never rewrite what already has been written. Its done, its over, burn in, throw it, turn it into an airplane and let it fly away, or a boat and make it sail away.

Sentimental Objects.. These kinds of objects can be random things in your room, movie tickets, couple shirts, jewelry, stuffed toys and so on. Objects that were symbolism of how much they loved you, like monthsary gifts, birthday gifts, random surprises, pasalubongs from random places and whatsoever. Objects that will remind you of them and how you both gave meaning to simple things and turned it into something special between the two of you.. Letting these go will help us move on from all the sentiments we’ve shared with that particular someone in our life. Before throwing them away, we think back and remember each and every special memory or sweet sentiments behind every single one of those objects, take one last smile or shed one last tear, because sooner or later, we’ll all have to let these memories fade.

And lastly,

You..

It has been a roller coaster ride since we broke up, a lot of shit has happened and a lot of unexpected and unprecedented craziness has taken place. Letting you go was never really easy, at some point I tried to be strong and keep it to myself, I tried to pretend that I’m getting through with it, I tried to keep it all to myself to hide the pain. I tried to love again but no one seemed to be comparable to you and what we had. There have been a few bumps and quite a few bruises along the way. It took some time for me to swallow the fact that it was already dead and gone. You were once the meaning to my life, you were once my everything, the reason for my smile and the one who used to make everyday of my life worthwhile.

Not until now have I really taken letting go of everything that reminded me of you seriously. I tried to do this before but to no avail, I always end up unconsciously remembering everything that used to be.

But now, it’s about time, to let go of everything that used to be, it’s inevitable, one way or the other I’ll have to let go..

The final nail in the coffin containing all the photos, the letters, the objects and all those wonderful memories with you.. Time to bury it and start anew.