Mi Arco Iris...

She... I never saw her coming my way....


I started the year 2015 on a crappy note, had a shitty relationship with the wrong bitch, had a crappy job working for and with even more wrong people... I quoted Ted Mosby when he once said, "My career and lovelife aren't going anywhere" or something like that, I felt that to the core, working 12 hours a day, getting paid jack shit for all that hard work without any kind of appreciation or recognition and instead getting randomly yelled at just because those stupid and illiterate freaks felt like it for no reason at all, found out that that bitch turned out how who everyone told me she was and not how who I thought and tried to believe her to be... Everything was crap from the beginning of the year, I didn't have any plans going forward, I just wanted to leave that shithole of a place.. I was depressed and torn apart, I never expected that my experience there would turn out to be like that.. The world is not perfect...

I resigned a week before my birthday, I thought it was the best birthday gift to myself to have left that God forsaken place..

I never knew that was the beginning of every crazy little thing that's gonna happen...

The first property I saw that was open for hiring elsewhere, I just applied, regardless of where it was, who was there, how much it paid etc etc... I didn't care, anywhere would have turned out to be better than that particular company.. and as expected, I got accepted to a new place, knowing absolutely no one, trying to rebuild my love for my profession and somehow promising myself not be involved in any kind of relationship after that freak show from the previous one.

Quite some time later, this girl walks in that front door, I liked her face, I noticed those big green eyes, I knew I wanted her.. She sat there, just looking around and speaking a different language with probably no clue of all the crazy things coming our way... and I remember that in that particular moment, for my eyes at least... regardless of my intentions at the time... she was perfect at first sight...

Everyone thought or at least majority thinks that it was gonna be a fuck buddy set up, or a summer fling, or a doomed relationship to begin with, we came from different cultures, different countries, different beliefs in life and different career paths, and the clock was ticking on us...

This kind of relationships don't work too easily, well at first it was like living a dream... living in the same house, sleeping in the same bed, waiting for each other to get back from work, preparing meals and doing the dishes together.. but it all had to end, she had to go back to reality and her country... it had to be that way and we had to face separation... everything we had done was like a foreplay of what's yet to come, or a preview of what we could possibly have in the future together..

I had to think on the fly, I had to come up with a decision and a solution, was it just gonna be a fuck buddy thing? a summer fling? or were we gonna take that shot at happiness despite having a very slight chance of actually turning something seemingly impossible into something really special... I had to take the risk, I could have chosen the easy way and escaped all kinds of emotions and commitment and just let her go back to her country no strings attached... but then I realized.. she was too much for me to pass on...

I didn't want to trust again, after the previous relationship I just thought of everything as a game, that there's no such thing as equality, that one will always take advantage of the other or the other way around, that was the culture from where I came from, or at least the culture that I got accustomed to in my previous relationship, that its all about succumbing to insecurities and chasing after money and fame and bragging rights and counting likes off your facebook photos and all that crap... I didn't want to go through all that shit all over again..

I was scared, a smart student, an over achiever with a brilliant mind, and it was her first time going abroad, it rang a bell to me.. I was scared that she was going to end up sleeping around with white dudes or her superiors and supervisors just because she wants to feel pretty and desirable overseas...

I was wrong...

She was completely different and that made me want to go through with this relationship...

She didn't care if she got 20 or 50 or 100 likes off her photos, she didn't care about being famous and popular, she didn't want to sleep around and flirt with people to make herself feel beautiful, she knows that she is and she's confident with herself that she doesn't need likes or any other people to tell her so... she just wanted to be with me, and that was enough, period, regardless of whatever anyone says or thinks, it didn't matter, no showbiz, no drama... she just wanted us to be us... and for that, I was very thankful to have met her... and that's when it hit me...

I had to make a plan, I had to be better in what I do.. I want to be able to go anywhere with her and do whatever it takes to be together like that again.. and I will, it's just a matter of time... The world will be our playground.. wherever it may be, as long as I have my camera on one hand and her hand in the other, anywhere in the world will do...

She was perfect... everything I ever asked for...

She was my rainbow, the wonder that came after the storm...

Mi Amor, Mi Arco Iris....

I know there will be a lot more storms to come, hell, we're in the middle of one right now... but I'll be okay because I know you'll always be there at the end of each and every one of them for me.. and I'll hold your hand and go through every storm in your life with you..