just Before it starts..

Faded..

..are my memories of you and the times we met in the past, I could only catch glimpses and short flashbacks of how you looked like when we were children.. I could barely remember anything about you..

and now here we stand.. in a foreign country, all grown up, careers ahead of us and a whole new perspective about the world.. I must say, I would be stupid not to give this a shot. I kinda like the woman you've become. But then again, just before the story starts..

A little something about myself..

I'm not the regular kind of guy, to be honest, I don't really know what kind of guy I am, some will say that I'm the sweetest and kindest guy they ever had, and some wishes that I burn in hell. I've made mistakes in the past and I might make some again in the future, I can never really tell. I never got to defend myself in some of those cases, it's only through this blog that I vent out whatever it is I want to vent out, because I believe that there's always two sides to every story, and the truth is made out of what the majority believe it to be, but not necessarily the actual truth itself.

I've been through a lot of bullshit over the past few years, a lot of ups and downs, failed relationships and a whole lot of stories to tell.. but this is not the time to talk about all that..

I'm not impressed with the cup size or the curves on a girls body, I'm more interested in a womans wit and intellect, career drive and passion for the unknown, I thought I'd never find someone who has all of it, to be honest I kinda gave up on it, but then here you are. I'm not sure how we'll connect tomorrow when we meet again after such a long time, and hell, I don't even know if you'll look at me that way, I'm writing this just in case it would mean something in the future, and because I couldn't believe that we were given the chance to meet at this stage of our lives, and I'm that kind of guy who believes that everything happens for a reason.

If you read through this blog, you'll see how much I believed in love, how much heartbreak and headaches I've been through trying to find the "one".. It's sad to say that all the girls in the previous articles all ended up mad or heartbroken.. and I'm sorry for that, I'll take all the blame for it for whatever it's worth.. these were all in the past and I've put it all behind me.. point is, they all just ended up being stories to tell..

I'm nervous, I haven't been so in a while, probably because I never thought I'd find someone like you especially in a place like this, you are exactly the kind of woman that I want to get to know better, and hopefully, this time fate will give me a break.