What if's..

It's supposed to be breaktime this month but fuck it, the writer's drunk as hell so fuck the world..

Just awhile ago while drinking 151 and a lot of other shit, a friend confessed his love for someone whom he admired since day 1 of meeting her.. I felt responsible for hooking the girl up with some friends of mine who caused pain but played important parts in her life.. not knowing that someone else in our group felt the same pain of seeing her getting hurt.. the girl is happily in a relationship now and her boyfriend is a good friend to our group..

The shitty part is when we were joking around asking about how the girl was "the one that got away" to that friend of ours.. in front of her boyfriend that seemed okay with the jokes and stupid scenarios we were giving.. I can feel him when she said that it could have worked out between them given that he told her how he felt for her.. but now it's too late, because she's with someone else and he's with someone else.. so now he's stuck with the question of "what if"...

What if's are sometimes the words said when we just couldn't find the courage to try something that is seemingly possible but we're just such a coward to try and do so.. Fuck it, tangina, sometimes, it's hard to read between the lines, sometimes it's hard to speak out your emotions, sometimes there's just that fear of failing and making a fool out of yourself.. but hey, sometimes you just have to fuck the world and give it a try... what if's are words of people who failed.. who were too scared to try and who were such a pussy and never did give it a shot.. giving up is always an option but fuck it, you'll never really know unless you try.. you can never really tell that's its a mistake unless you've tried and failed, otherwise your mistake will be not knowing if that was a mistake or not..

It's better to fail knowing that you tried rather than thinking that you've failed without even trying..

What if, what if.. tangina what if...


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