Fucks and Shits.

Have you ever thought if a single mistake or judgement you've made in the past could have changed the course of your life forever?.. If there was ever a chance to fix things up but pride fucks everything up at the very last minute?.. sometimes you just  think you are over some shit in your life but sometimes, it comes back fucking up your mind like crazy..

Mistakes are inevitable, can be minimized but is seemingly impossible to avoid.. and there are just times when you have control over avoiding doing it but still end up doing it.. at first you feel good having satisfied your curiosity or whatever reason you have for that dilemma of yours.. but truth is, karma comes back in many ways you have never imagined.. and when it comes, it will hit you hard.. what goes around comes around, the pleasure we all feel when we do something we know is wrong but feels right at the moment, the sweet taste of success and self glory and the continuous feeding of your pride will all come crumbling down at the very least moment you expect it..

Evidences can always be erased, truths can be bended into lies and facts can always be questioned but memory and conscience will always remain intact.. shit happens for a reason, to learn, to grow and to mature in some cases.. but how about those things that fucks you up for no reason at all?.. you may think that there is no reason but truth is, reality has its own way of connecting shit in your life.. sometimes in a good way but sometimes in a way that will fuck you up even more..

Then comes this one mistake that changed your life forever, the change could be a good thing in the start but turns worse.. or the change that starts out bad but comes up good in the long run.. pick your poison.. its natural for us to think that things happen for a reason, for the better and for the benefit of our growth.. But sometimes, shit just happens with you having no idea of what to do, aware that this may be a good thing in the long run but in the mean time you feel like shit not knowing what to do, what to think and even what to feel.. yes you will learn from whatever this is, but reality takes time to sink in, getting drunk, continuous blabbing, self destructive tendencies and so on always comes first in mind, before even thinking about clearing your head of all the shit and moving forward a better man..

Knowing if the mistake could have been changed is one thing that will remain a mystery forever, maybe it was meant to happen, a twist of fate or a sign of God.. we'll never know if we really had control over doing it or not, what's certain is the feeling we get after that mistake is something essential to our growth.. losing people, hurting people and being left alone are some shit in life that would eventually come.. up to you on how you'll embrace these dark moments in your life..

Overcoming the mistakes you've made, learning from them and not doing it again are things easier said than done.. flashes of your past actions will always come haunting you back and temptation will always be as available as ever.. the simple question is, how far will you be willing to go to fix your mistakes and move on?.. if it is even possible to still fix them.. and if not, can you live with it? a life regretting something you wished you have never done..

Shit happens.. deal with it, play your part then move on.. that is, if you know what and how to play your part..


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