To An Ex for Someone New.

Dear Ex,

Things have happened, things has shaken up, time's changed and we've ended.. A wonderful ride for what was supposedly a lifetime of a relationship, a bitter end to something that started out sweet, shattering into pieces what we both built to be solid and breaking what we both held for each other to take care of, these were common reactions freshly after the break-up, thinking that it's the end of the world, not knowing what to do next, confused, puzzled and estranged to the world I would then live in after the day we've parted.. Honestly speaking, at the beginning, it has been terrible, difficult and painful to deal with, living a life filled with hopes and dreams we both shared and longed for then realizing that its all dead and gone now.. Seeing and going to places we've shared moments together, dining at our favorite restaurants, going out alone with the people we used to be with all the time, hearing our song on the radio, watching movies that made us laugh and cry together.. and all other crazy shit that would remind me of you were all painful to deal with back then.. I had no choice but to endure everything and move on..

Little by little, I started moving on, removed obvious memories of you out of my room, minimized talking about you, burnt the letters and pictures (It really helps seeing them burn, I don't know why..) and started to enjoy the company of those around me without blabbing or whining about our breakup, I was starting to enjoy life without you.. but when you're about to throw something away, you take one last look at it before completely letting it go, trying to see if there's something worth salvaging out of it or if it's still worth keeping.. This was when I've reminisced of the times we've been together, everything we've been through, and the downfall of our relationship. Who is to blame? no one really knows and no one can really tell, it may be that I hadn't fought for it enough or you have given up easily or the other way around or whatever, bottom line is we broke up, took time apart and both is presumably happy with our separate lives now.

I'm sorry for everything I've put you through, sorry for all the pain I've caused you, for all the times I wasn't there when you needed me, for the times I chose my pride over your emotions and for everything else that you threw back at me when we broke up.. I've learned my lessons and hopefully you did too, too much of everything will always be bad.. I'm sorry if I took you for granted..

We've both had our faults, I may have the bigger share of them but please don't blame it all on me.. I've admitted mine and hopefully you can do the same.. I truly loved you back then,  you've been an important part of my life, I really believed in you and me, but maybe, we really were just not meant to be.. Thank you for all the wonderful times, though it may not have worked out between us, I have learned a lot and though we may not be in good terms right now, I would still like to thank you for all the things we've been through together for without those memories, I would not be the person I am today.

And now there's someone new, someone who showed me the light in the darkness I fell into, someone who brings out the best in me.. someone who made me want to be a better man than the boy I was with you.. someone who made me fall in love differently than how I fell for you before, knowing that this time, pain has been felt and a lot lessons has been learned as compared to the happy-go-lucky kids we were back then.. someone whom I wouldn't want to be writing a letter like this for in the future.. 

I've learned, changed and grew up since the break up, it may be hard to tell and hard to believe.. but who would like to repeat the same mistakes and suffer the same consequences as before.. I know that both of us are a lot of years wiser and stronger now than how we were when we first met.. and now that we both have someone new in our lives.. let's learn from our mistakes and do things right this time.. I'm sure we wouldn't want to lose that someone we love right now the way we did ourselves.. 

We may not be given the chance to meet face to face anymore, just let this words be our source of closure, a decent ending to a tragic story.. and as we open our hearts to another person, we both know that somehow, in the end, all the pain we both endured during the course of our relationship and break-up will all be worth it.. 

I'm extremely sorry and at the same time I'm truly grateful to you for everything...

Thank You and Goodbye..

Sincerely,

Your Ex 
08-18-12